When I finally sat in Circle that first time, I knew I had been here before.
As I felt myself come home in this body, I remembered the Circle of another lifetime. The way we came together to speak, to listen, to celebrate, to support. I remembered the power of reclaiming not only myself, but the Sisterhood.
I had felt lost for some time, drifting in the busy-ness of raising three children and placing my own joy somewhere down the list.
I was feeling weathered, overwhelmed and far too harsh on those I loved.
Truth be told, I was playing the victim, as if it was all out of my control, but it was my self-care that lacked the depth that would allow me to awaken to the true spirit of me.
This depth I found in Circle.
I recognised that I was living disconnected from the essence of what my body, my temple, housed. I was living in a constant state of doing, driven by Ego. There was no cycling with my womb, harmonising with the seasons or honouring the birth, death, rebirth cycles. I was living apart from the barefoot child that I grew up as, separate from the Witch I had claimed as a teen.
When I heard the call though, my whole being shifted. It was like a switch flicked and I instantly began feeling again.
All of a sudden, I recognised my soul’s whispers and I could understand what I was being told. There’s nothing quite like awakening to yourself, your gifts and your womb.
It was then I learned about the red thread.
The red thread connects us all, Woman to Earth, to Mother, to Daughter, to Sister and beyond.
It symbolises our blood, our bond and delivered through it, we receive the wisdom of our ancestors.
We also receive their wounds. These wounds that run so deep into the collective, but that we as women are being called to take a stand for. We are being called to RISE UP and face them, to open our hearts and feel the pain they have left behind.
Only through feeling, can we begin to create healing. Through feeling we learn to call back home and integrate the fragments of ourselves that we left behind, as a result of these wounds and build ourselves stronger again. To recognise that we were always whole, we had just closed off to feeling it.
Our healing is supported greatly by our Mama Earth. When we feel lost, we can simply look to her to guide the way. In the same way wisdom rests within our wombs from all women who have lived, wisdom rests within the cycles of our Great Mother. We are her children and she teaches us all we need to know… should we simply look and listen and feel.
In Circle we re-learn how to see, to hear, to feel, to open, to expand, to connect.
And so, it was in Circle, that I awakened the pieces of myself I had so long ago forgotten. Had I even known them all yet in this lifetime?
I found the courage to speak, to allow my voice to be heard without worrying about what the response would be.
I found the strength to face my wounds and remove the masks that had me feeling safe, but not whole, until this point.
I found the trust I needed to walk my soul path, regardless of whether anyone chose to walk alongside me.
I found myself and the ability to open to all that it is to be a woman.
I finally recognised who I was.
In Circle, I take a stand for our Earth and leaving behind the gifts of initiation for our daughters, through the power of initiating ourselves. May we heal the wounds of the Feminine and rebirth a new way of being for all women who are yet to come. May we bring ourselves back into harmony with the Earth, for there we learn how to be within ourselves.
