Trusting the Waiting Period

Ten days late. My second baby was supposedly due on July 21 and no sign of her yet.

My entire pregnancy I thought: second baby, no big deal. Never put much thought into it like my first pregnancy. During the end of my second trimester, I had one of the most fun, creative times in my business putting on a 3-day live event for 50 women, speaking at the Chopra Center and launching 2.0 of our Facilitator Tribe. I honestly never felt “pregnant.”

So when I officially took maternity leave on July 18 and my husband put me on “house arrest” as I jokingly called it, I thought, this baby is just going to pop right out in the next few days. Easy peasy.

Instead, I’ve been in one of the most transformative processes of patience and surrender in my life.

Yesterday, I called my mom and with tears in my eyes, told her that it felt vulnerable to ask her to change her flight for her 10-day vacation she was scheduled to go on with a group of my parents’ friends.

Asking for what I desired and needed felt scary in that moment, not wanting to be rejected or a burden.

She told me not to worry, she’d postpone her flight til Monday because she didn’t want to miss the birth.

I feel closer than ever to her as today marks my grandmother’s birthday and I’m present to the lineage of women in my family. Mothers and daughters. The divine feminine evolving, healing, rising.

We want to control everything, even our arbitrary due dates. But the goddess always has another plan, a divine plan. Control is an illusion. To truly embody our feminine leadership, we must trust the mysterious way that the feminine works and surrender to the unfolding.

I read this recently in a blog post:

“Shouldn’t there be a word for this state of being, describing the time and place where mothers linger, waiting to be called forward?

“Germans have a word, zwischen, which means between. I’ve co-opted that word for my own obstetrical uses. When I sense the discomfort and tension of late pregnancy in my clients, I suggest that they are now in The Time of Zwischen. The time of in between, where the opening begins. Giving it a name gives it dimension, an experience closer to wonder than endurance.” – Jana Studelska

Yes indeed, the feminine mystery is a wonder. This waiting period, has been wonder-ful the more I’ve surrendered to it. From my creativity bursting through to deeper connection with my own mother, I am getting exactly what I need to bring this soul into the world and raise her as a new generation feminine leader.

If you are in Zwischen yourself — and it can look like any transition you are in where you are waiting for answers, a sign, or something to shift or change — I invite you to let go of resisting it and allow the beautiful unfolding to occur. This is where the magic and miracles take place.

In sistership,

Tanya

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